Beau Bennett VanSlambrouck
June 18th, 2021
My husband and I had could not get pregnant naturally so we went through IVF. We had our first son through IVF in 2019 and decided we wanted to give our son a little buddy so we started IVF again and in February 2021 we did our transfer. Our embryo was already genetically tested and was considered a 5AA.
I was 20 weeks along when I felt some sharp pain earlier in the day so when I got home I tried to find his heartbeat on the baby doppler and I couldn't find it. I decided that if I couldn't find it in the morning I would go in because everything I read online said not to panic, that the baby could be behind the cord making it hard to find the heartbeat. I tried again in the morning and still could not find it so I decided to go to my OB. The nurse came in and said not to panic and checked on the doppler she too could not find it so she said she was going to ask the doctor to perform an ultrasound. The doctor came in and turned the screen away from me, I instantly knew something was wrong. He then informed me that Beau had no heartbeat but was measuring at 19 weeks and 4 days so it must have just happened. They couldn't tell me that day why this had happened but after I had him they sent him in for testing and they ruled that the cause was my placenta. My placenta had been measuring ahead of Beau and that he was not growing at the same rate. This could have been found earlier if they had done a proper ultrasound. I had bleeding throughout my pregnancy and every time I had gone in they said it was normal. Later after talking to another High Risk doctor he said it wasn't normal and they should have done a more detailed ultrasound. Due to Covid I felt that this pregnancy did not allow me to be seen as much in person as I should have been with already being High Risk.
After having Beau I left the hospital with nothing but discharge papers. The hospital later stated that I should have received a Care Box but the nurses must have forgot. I was also placed in the C-Section overflow rooms where I had to hear babies crying and parents calling family members to let them know their babies were here. It was extremely triggering for me.
I started Bears from Beau because I want parents to have something to remember their babies with. No parent should have to lose their children but because it is so common I hope that Beau Bears will give them a little happiness in such a difficult time.